It really broke my heart when I saw baby lying on the hospital bed sleeping after his operation. It must have been really painful. He had tears of blood coming out of his eye. I sat there beside him, tearing softly hoping that he don't find out. I know I'm weak I know I cry way too easily I know I should stop being like this but I can't help it. He couldn't even open his eye because it hurts so badly. But there was nothing I can do, I'm so helpless as he was suffering. I couldn't be of any help when he call out for his mother. I'm so upset I'm so useless. I know, nothing will happen to him but I just can't help it. When he got home, I was lying beside him, I had accidentally touch wounds caused by the needles which hurt him alot as I guess. I can't help it but tear again because I don't want to see him in pain and it's all my fault that I caused more pain. I really hope I could be stronger but I always lost to my emotions. I don't want him in pain and it hurts me a lot too. Get well soon my baby.
Rawin is back to his hometown today. Klemens and I sent him back. Met Justin and Darryl with Klemens too. Not gonna elaborate.
My day started out like this: Sent Rawin off with Klems
Met Darryl and Justin after that
Camwhoring in the hospital while waiting for baby to feel better. Looking glum :C
Finally able to see it's grey contacts!
Some other camwhore pics in fb, blogger is seriously slow.
